July 1st, 2009

Sanity, here I come

After 7 months of non-existence in tabulas and a life-changing experience, I finally am able to express myself again.

I have attempted a few times before to write again but whenever I face the blank sheet of digital paper on the laptop screen, the chaos that is my brain becomes too overwhelmed with thoughts and emotions zooming around in its already cramped space, and I become stumped. Now that there is a semblance of order in my life, I can write… I can finally write without crying or blanking out.

Where should I begin?

Of course, the one who changed my life: Drew Gabriel.

Don’t worry, it’s not going to be a mom’s entry where all she writes about is her son/daughter and how great or good-looking he/she is (it is true though. Well then, that’s said and done. Haha!). I will write about the truth: I AM TIRED. Once you’ve become a mom, you’re never going to be completely anything else. It will never end. Even now, as I am writing this entry, I check the crib where he is sleeping every other sentence I write.

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... and here I am, several days later, continuing this entry. He woke up while I was typing. Yep, what can I say? Drew first before Tabulas. Hahaha. :D

Okay, so just let me say this: He's so cute!!! ^_^

He's worth waking up at night during ungodly hours, holding in pee while rocking him to sleep, not drinking more than a bottle of beer every inuman sessions, still having left-over flabs from the pregnancy, and being one size bigger when it comes to clothes and shoes (permanently, according to mom. *sigh). I am tired, but I still get that feeling that I should do more just to make him comfortable, just to make sure he's okay. :D

I do need breaks once in a while and (I can't believe I'm saying this), thank goodness I'm enrolled this semester. Seeing people makes me feel like my normal self. I don't want to become one of those moms whose whole world revolves around their children. Besides, I'm still in the process of figuring out my life after all.

So all in all, I'm on my feet and I'm moving forward.

I couldn't have done it without all my family and friends. And of course, the doctor and the pedia and... you get the picture. hahaha. :D

 

Currently listening to: Kai by Maryzark
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November 16th, 2008

The Worst Thing

What is the worst thing that can happen to you at this point in your life, other than death or natural disasters?

 

Think about it.

 

 

("That Sinking Feeling")

Currently listening to: NU 107
Currently feeling: sinking deep
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October 5th, 2008

Handwriting Wizard: Interesting stuff

Nakiki-uso ba? Totoo daw yung sa kanila sabi ng iba... ewan. Just tried it because I didn't want to do my thesis yet. Bwehehehehe. :D

 

from: www.handwritingwizard.com

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Welcome Ma. Francesca Latay, here is your handwriting analysis.

 Ma. Francesca is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Ma. Francesca will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Ma. Francesca an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Ma. Francesca is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Ma. Francesca is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

 People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Ma. Francesca doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

 Ma. Francesca will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Ma. Francesca believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

 Ma. Francesca will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

 In reference to Ma. Francesca's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Ma. Francesca slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Ma. Francesca can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

 Ma. Francesca is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Ma. Francesca basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

 Ma. Francesca is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

 Ma. Francesca has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

 For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Ma. Francesca has left some white space on the left side of the paper. Ma. Francesca fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion moving the entire writing rightward as she moves down the page. If this is true, then Ma. Francesca has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Ma. Francesca is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Ma. Francesca is leaving the past behind and moving on to what she perceives as an exciting and enticing future.

 

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Some parts are true, I guess. Pero naisip ko lang, eh tinuruan kami ng ganitong penmanship nung gradeschool ako eh! Ibig sabihin ba pare-pareho kami ng ugali ng gradeschool classmates ko??? Labo. Hahaha. :D

Ho well. *bangs head against the lapto- ah, table nalang*

Currently listening to: NU 107
Currently reading: handwriting analysis
Currently feeling: kebs
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October 1st, 2008

On the Merry-Go-Round

I've recently discovered the source of my procrastination: my mood.

The mood swings that I was so proud not to have? I have them... and in majorly lethal doses. I guess I was in denial of the fact that I do have them. Also, the simplicity of my mood swings perhaps contributed to my denial: what I want, I will get, and what I don't, I will avoid.

I don't get why people can't accept the reason, "because I want to" or "because I don't want to." They always look for another, more unselfish reason that is more acceptable in their world. Well, wake up and smell the roses. Everyone is selfish and even wanting a more unselfish reason is selfishness in your part. Besides, being selfish is not exactly a bad thing.

Anyway, back to mood swings.

I get in a certain depression mode sometimes, especially when I detect a lot of stress-related activities looming over my head. In these moments, I get physically sick, feel more lethargic than usual, and crave a lot of comfort food. Most of the time, I just want to SLEEP. Therefore, I DON'T DO ANYTHING USEFUL AT ALL. Escapism, anyone? The thing is, it usually lasts a week and I'm over it and get back on track. It depends on the level of my depression though so sometimes it's shorter, sometimes it's longer.

So that's my mood swing system. And the main source of my procrastination.

The key to solving this is for me to be HAPPY.

...

...

Ha. No wonder.

Reminds me of my housing class, where we detected all the problems... but the answers are so vague and impossible. Ha. Ha.

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One thing that WILL make me happy though (even for a little while) will be Hayao Miyazaki's new uber cute movie under studio Ghibli, Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea. Soooo kawaii!! I want a copy, dammit!!!

 

Ponyo poster

Currently listening to: Ponyo theme song
Currently watching: ponyo trailer
Currently feeling: moody
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September 24th, 2008

UP Profs Quotable Quotes

*disclaimer: This was sent to me through email. I honestly don't know most of these professors pero sobrang nakakatawa lang! hahahaha! Have a good read! ^_^

UP Professors' Quotable Quotes

"The aim of policy making is to invoke action! Because action speaks
louder than words! You do not just say I love you. You say: If you
love me, enter me! "
- Dr. Alfonso Pacquing

"Class, next week na lang ung result sa exam nyo. I am having a hard
time checking it. I will seek first the divine guidance on what to do
about it. Class dont worry about your grade. Let me worry about it."
- Sir de jesus, envi sci 1

(valentines day)
"Ano ba yan? Students ba kayo ng UP? Bakit ang bababa ng scores niyo?
Siguro wala kayong date ngayong valentines kaya ganito kayo. Losers!!!
When i was your age i had a date. Hindi ba naapektuhan ng UP FAIR
euphoria ng grades niyo? Parang di kayo masaya..."
(sabay matching tapon ng quizzes sa sahig)
"I won't record this. Go find a date."
(sabay walk out.)
- Sir Doliente, BA

Ma'am: Many people believe that we, psychology graduates can read minds...
(silence)
Actually, we can.
Class: Weh.. Sample..
Ma'am: Right now, you think that I'm bluffin
- Ma'am Chei Billedo, Psych

"I don't give surprise long exams. all exams are announced. Halimbawa,
Class, mageexam tayo, NGAYON NA!"
- Ma'am Chei

"The human body is 70% water. Kaya wala kayong kasaysayan lahat. Pag
may kaaway ka, sabihin mo sa kanya, TUBIG KA LANG!!!
- Dr. Recio


"Oo, nagpapaulan ako ng uno... baket? aanhin ko ba nun? di naman ako
yayaman dun."
- Sir Atoy Navarro, histo I

(commenting on a thesis of a senior student)
'Yang thesis mo? .. Mamamatay ka!! Mamamatay ka!!'
- Dr. llanes, UPM.

"Nasa bandang gilid ang fallopian tube. Kaya kung gusto niyong
magka-anak ng asawa niyo, dapat nakatagilid kayo habang gumagawa."
- Ma'am Meggie, Zoo 10

"Last sem was the first time that I gave a grade of 5, and it felt good!!!"
Prof Goldie, Comm II, circa 1998, first day of class

atheist ako, pero pag nasa bahay, nagro rosary kami ng Nanay ko, eh
kung magalit sa kin yun.
- Socio 11 Prof

"you do not fall in love; you rise in love. That's how you love rationally."
- Dr. FG david

"Try to die! Try to die!"
- sir billones, on a student who is palpitating while taking the exam.
He claims that after incident refreshed na lagi yung estudyante. If I
know, pag naaalala ng estudyanteng yun yung moment na yun, kaya siya
laging refreshed, kasi natatawa siya pag naaalala niya iyon.

"Anong molars? You don't say molars because it is an adjective! Do you
say beautifuls?"
- ma'am ilao, to a student who said "n molars"

"Kahit magpakamatay ka pa di mo masasagot yang problem set na yan
dahil pang-157 (phy chem II) yan!"
- ibid

"Do not memorize! Analyze!"
- doc nic, advising us, her students never to memorize reaction mechanisms

"Kaya nga ideal eh, hindi siya nangyayari sa totoong buhay. Pero an
approximation is good enough"
- sir engle, on ideal and real systems

"Don't take the BAR and yourselves too seriously. baka mabalitaan
nalang namin na nag-o-oral summation kayo sa Luneta. O
lumulutang-lutang sa Pasig River. Enjoy yourselves, relax, and read at
least 15 hours a day. Nakakabobo ang sobrang tulog. MAg relax ka
habang nagbabasa. Magrelax habang nagmi-memorize. "

"Pag nananaba ka sa oras ng exams, ibig sabihin di ka papasa."

"Oh the BAR isn't scary. It's terrifying. It might even kill you."

and the unforgettable: "Wow. Rape-able." and "Stand up Miss ___ so
that I might see the contours of your body."

alternately encouraging and disheartening ang drama nitong prof na'to.

Ito naman from our Prof. Ancient:
"Mga engineers? Nako. Bihira pumapasa sa BAR."

"UP ka nag-undergrad? Bright ka ba?"

"Sa mga taga-UP lang ako bilib eh. Pagpasok nila sa lawschool, hindi
sila disoriented. Bilib ako sa study habits na meron yang mga batang
yan. Some of them look like they eat kamote thrice a day, pero ang
utak, di ututin!" (ewan ko kung matutuwa ako dito o hindi)

sabi ng aming dean who is 80 yrs old, "class you're laughing now, but
i will predecease you all"

prof: O, meron na bang nakapunta sa inyong XXX
class: (tahimik)
prof: (medyo nadisappoint) Ano?! Puro na lang ba kayo aral? Aral na
lang kayo ng aral, ha? Wala na kayong napupuntahan kakaaral niyo!

same prof: Nakita niyo na ba ang Hoover dam?
class: (tahimik uli)
prof: Hehehehe, ang yabang ko talaga!

Second day of classes
Same Prof: (kinuha ang box ng colored chalks) Ano ba naman ito...
(tapos iniitsa sa lamesa yung mga dark colored chalks)
class: (tahimik na nagmamasid)
Prof: Class, sulatan niyo ang manufacturer ng chalk na ito, at
sabihing tanggalin na ang mga walang kwentang kulay na ito... brown,
green, violet. hindi makikita ito sa board. Convince them
class: (tahimik at gulat)
Prof: and .25 incentive sa final grade niyo!

terror prof after an exam (last day na din ng class..): ok class.. see
you next sem!

"Ateneo is not a university, it's a diploma mill. Bakit ba nakangiti
pa mga estudyante dyan kapag lalabas sila ng gate nila, hindi ba nila
nalalaman ang nami-miss nila sa edukasyon?"

"The more wisdom you obtain, the more you shut your mouth. This is
because the more that you learn, the more you realize that there are
even more things that you do not know. The true mark of an idiot is a
loudmouth, the true mark of a wise man is humility"
- Paraphrased galing kay PI100. Puta best prof sa CAL.


"IE? Di naman engineering yun e"
-Thesis adviser

Classmate: Ma'am, pwede po bang next week na kami mag report?
Ma'am: Alam mo, God is good. And I am God. So yes, pwede next week.

galing kay sir U eliserio during creative writing class...
"try everything once except incest"

and one day pumasok ng room, galit na galit. hinagis ang bag sa table,
nagwawala sa harap ng room dahil hindi daw nasagot ng previous class
niya ang question niya. kaya dapat daw masagot namin, ang makasagot
may plus points. kapag walang makasagot, lagot kami. ang tanong....
"class, sinong lalaking artista dun sa TV show na wonder years"?

"Mamatay na mangopya..."
saka
"Ang hindi maka-100, bobo!".

"im gay. so gay i could show you my penis because it is but an
accessory to my body"
- jean navera, spcm1

FIRST DAY OF CLASSES: "Kung may boyfriend o girlfriend kayo na hindi
taga-UP, hiwalayan niyo na agad. Walang pupuntahan yan. Hindi kayo
magkaka-intindihan. Tapos yung mga anak niyo, magiging bobo. Gusto
niyo ba yun?"

ANOTHER PROF: "Hoy girls, wag kayong kukuha ng boyfriend dito sa UP.
Pare-parehas tayong mahirap dito. Kumuha kayo ng mayaman. 80% of the
child's intelligence comes from the Mother naman eh. Kayo guys, wag
kayo kukuha ng bobong babae. Kahit matalino kayo, magiging bobo anak
niyo."

"Class, Chinatown is not in China. And Ateneo de Manila University is
not... a university."

STUDENT: Sir, pwede po magpa-sit in yung friends ko?
PROF: From what school are they?
STUDENT: St. Scho po.
PROF: "Go ahead. So they'll realize what they're missing. St. Scho,
St. Scho... eskwelahan na ba yun sa inyo?!"

sa PHILO:
"I THINK THEREFORE I AM FROM UP!"

"Class, kaya mahal ang bayad sa mga professors sa ibang school kasi
ang bobobo ng mga estudyante dun. Dyuskoh, I used to teach there... at
lumuluha talaga ako ng dugo bago maintindihan ng mga students yung
sinasabi ko. Ang mahal nga ng bayad, magkakasakit ka naman sa panga
kakaulit ng lessons! Wag na lang! Dito na ko sa UP, at least
nagkakaintindihan tayo. Diba?"

Dahil kami ang mga huling estudyante ni Dr. David at mahal na mahal
namin siya, nag-compile kami dati ng mga quotable quotes mula sa
kanya. Ito ang ilan:
"Meanings we find are the meanings we make."
"WHAT YOU LEARN IN UP IS TO GO ON AND NEVER GIVE UP. THAT IF THERE BE
ONE PERSON LEFT STANDING, LET IT BE ME. LET ATENEO FALL FIRST BEFORE
UP..."
"The measure of a man is how many doors he has opened to other people,
especially to those he doesn't know."
"To be born is to die. In between they grow and multiply like flies.
6.2 billion people in the world. Kadiri, ano?"
"Why not life? Why call it soul? Call a spade a spade."
"Earth is the only heaven we can know."
"religion is a successful economic institution"
"Do not live long enough to be worthless."
"Domestication of the human male is one of the greatest achievement of
the human race."
"I do not know many. I only know enough to teach my classes."

"We do not accept anyone here in class except for those who are
members of a certain minority group. For example, gays are part of a
minority group, bakla ka ba? If you admit to this class that you are
gay, then I'll admit you"
- Prof "hail to the chair", to a guy student na nagpre-prerog

"kapatid ng sinungaling ang magnanakaw.
"ergo, gma's marriage to mike arroyo is null and void ab initio."
consti law class, 1st sem, AY 2005-06

"running for summa ka? mapapagod ka lang."

"Si Miriam, crush ko 'yun dati. Muntikan na maging kami, kaso nasiraan
ng ulo, kaya 'yun, iba ang asawa ko."

"Class, gusto ko kayong i-train na mag-English, so when you're here in
class, magsalita kayo ng English! Ako lang ang exempted dahil matanda
na ako at ako ang teacher!"

Ma'am Vitriolo (2nd to the last meeting)
Okay class, next week, we start the lecture proper.

more of Ma'am Ilao
"Hindi mahirap makakuha ng UNO sa class ko. yung gumradweeeyt last
year na Magna Cum Laude ng Biochem, uno siya sakin sa Chem 18"

Sabi ng Prof ko dahil may kaklase akong recite ng recite w/o raising her hand
"I think this is the first time i have a student w/ tourette in my class..."
Recite parin ng recite yung student
"Wow the ejaculatory comments just don't stop!"

from my socsci1 prof last sem: "Birds of the same feather FLOCK
together...don' t forget the L".

"I'll strangle you, strangle you really hard, smack right in your
jugular (pause ng mga 5 seconds), you do know where your jugular is?"

"Be ready with your speech because I am going to lambaste you!"
-namutla nalang yung classmate kong freshie after hearing sir navera
sa spcm 1 namin

'bakit parang napakaligaya ng klase niyo? maging sad naman kayo, 5
mins.' - prof ko sa math 100.

"well of course when you sell your soul you have to make an elaborate
justification to make yourself feel good."
-Sir Walden Bello, Socio 127, this sem
^grabe ang galing ni sir bello. nakakaamaze.

"ano bang natapos mo? italian 8?"

"punyetissima! " (sosyal pati mura italian!)

"look at me i'm 433 years old pero ang lakas lakas ko pa. eh kung
walang gulay eh di kakain na lang ako ng damo. kung wala eh di tubig,
kung wala mag-ipon na lang ako ng laway."
-Sir Tiamson, Italian 11, this sem

When you graduate, then you begin to live.
-Dr. Carmen Jimenez, Psych 118

from Prof Soresca in my spanish 1 class
Prof:"Mr. Gatbunton, why are you late?!"
Student:"Sorry Mam, galing pa ako Las Pinas."
Prof: "Ladies, don't marry somebody from Las Pinas because they have
bamboo organs!!"

"there are only two countries who still use Fahrenheit.. the United
States of America and Liberia... a pathetic country in africa"
- Sir Argete

Marx is more Christian than Christ and Christ is more Marxist than Marx.
- Sir Lanuza.

May kaklase ako, may jowang taga Ateneo
"Ateneo? How could you love someone from the Ateneo? "

sa geol11, ayaw mag-recite ng mga classmates ko..
sabi ni ma'am cathy
"wag na mahiya, you have nothing to lose but your face.."

si sir agapito..habang 2nd exam at malakas ang ulan..
"ang lakas ng ulan, ayos yan at least hindi halata pag umiiyak.."

Class: Sir, sa exams po ba nagbibigay kayo ng partial points?
Prof: Hmm, if I see partial wisdom.

"It's okay to smoke inside my class. As long as you don't breathe it
out." -Dr. Obsioma, Biodiversity

"Oh, this is good. It's poetic because it's perfectly stupid." -
Ricardo de Ungria last week on my classmate's work.

Prof: Did I remind the class last meeting that we're going to have an
exam today?
Class: (dead air)
Prof: Ok, it seems I forgot to remind the class that we're going to
have an exam today. I'm giving you five minutes then to buy a
bluebook. We're going to have an exam today.

sir tiamson (span 11)
"ayan, di ka makasagot. yung bakal sa ngipin mo naapektuhan na yung
pagsasalita mo"

 

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Add ko lang:

Sir Espina: "Class, you should bring your boyfriend/girlfriend to the lagoon and have fun there!"

(after discussing the toilet) "Isn't it a beauty, class? Hehehehe."

*AHAHAHAHAHAHA!* Winner si Sir!!! CUTE! ^_^

 

Currently listening to: Duffy
Currently reading: emails
Currently feeling: smiling sickly
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