The Land of Crimson Dreams

Awang-awa na talaga ako sa UP aking mahal... pinanood ko yung UAAP opening game kanina sa t.v. - UP v.s. AdU. Takte. Wala palang mangyayari kahit sigawan mo ang t.v. set! Talo pa rin! Tsk tsk tsk... in-expect ko na yun pero kahit na! Nakakainis pa rin!!

Oh well. Nakakatuwa pa rin yung UAAP opening ceremonies. La Salle kasi yung host ngayong taon kaya puro BERDE ang nakikita ko. May kabaduyan nga eh... nung isa-isang tinawag ang mga universities, may pa archer-archer pa sila tapos may laser na lumalabas sa may arrow... papaputukin yung balloon na may lamang confetti! NAKAKATAWA! Tapos yung pep squad nila ay nagcheer ng mga cheers (malamang...) ng iba't ibang schools. Pagdating sa Ateneo... ang SARKASTIKO! Mainit talaga ang kompetisyon!

Pero in fairness, ang galing ng kanilang orchestra.

At puro gwapo pala ang mga players ng UST!!! Takte, ba't 'di ako pumasok dun? BWAHAHAHA! joke...

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Things that happened to me this week: CHAIR. CHAIR. CHAIR.

Grabe talaga, ang hirap gumawa ng salumpuwit!! Pucha... upuan pa lang yan! design, isometric *GAH!*, may de-pukpok, may de-lagari, may de-sakit ng ulo... AHHH!!!!

NAKAKALOKA!!!!

*breathe*

Hay, buhay arki. Ngayon ko lang nararamdaman na arki talaga ako.

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

*insert panicked movements*

I'm getting stressed. I don't like it when I'm stressed. Why oh why do I procrastinate? Ah, 'tis my major weakness. *sigh*

This week was quite all right. I practically went to school only on monday, tuesday, and friday. Sort of... not counting Philo on wednesday but that's only up to 10 am. On thursday, I bugged Erik into watching Spider-man 2 in Galle. 'Tis fun, even though we just ate, watched, and ate again. :D

What I'm really worried about is next week. I should've finished my Arch 2. I should've made my plate in Arch 1. I should've started with my Philo1 homework. I shouldn't have dallied 4 hours in the net tonight. Damn it.

And even though I keep telling myself that I will be a slave to my homeworks tomorrow, I know that I won't. I know that I will probably wake up late and go to the mall in the afternoon. And I know that I will probably cram everything.

Damn self-control... where the hell are you?!?!?!

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On the brighter side of life... (is there really a brighter side of life? Isn't life an endless void of darkness and depression? -- OKAY. I'll save this for Philo)... ANYWAY, I'm going to join an org next week *at last!* What I'm really dreading though is that sigsheet thing. And we're required to tambay for 10 hours a week. Where will I find the time?!

Then again, it's not exactly torture.

How can one feel so deliriously happy one moment, then devastatingly morose the next?

I hate these rollercoaster depression rides. Or Anchors Away mood swings.

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Hm. Bigla kong gustong pumuntang EK. Magpakamatay sa ferris wheel... ipapabilis ko ang ikot hanggang sa umitsa ako papalayo hanggang buwan. Doon, mamamatay ako dahil walang oxygen.

Tama. Nice plan, nice plan.

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My imagination's running away with me again. Sometimes I think that too much imagination is bad for one's health. Add a little flair for dramatics and it's a sure path for one's own destruction.

*KABOOM*

I'm so goddamned tired - physically and mentally.

Weird talaga... this week ang dami kong pasa! Parang binugbog ako... shet. Lots of unnaccountable blunders and mishaps. Dami pang sugat sa paa, isang pimple na ayaw umalis, at mga muscles (oo, meron akong muscles!) na sumasakit kada galaw. Pucha.

STRESS GALORE!!!

Nung wednesday, sabay pa yung test ko sa Philo at Math... I think I flunked the former and botched the latter. Tapos yung pinaghirapan kong paper sa Geog sa Tuesday pa due!!! TAKTE. Yung P.E. naman, sa aking katangahan ay nahampas ko ng arnis ang aking binti. Tsk tsk tsk. Cheska... CONCENTRATE!!!

Tapos ayoko nang pag-usapan yung traffic kagabi. Pambihira.

Minsan nagchat pa kami nung isang kaibigan ko hanggang mga 1 o 2 dahil sa mga bagay na sobrang lalim. Okay naman eh, at least naibabahagi ko ang mga ideya kong akala ko ako lang ang nakakaisip. Pero draining din mag-isip ng sobra-sobra! Pero hindi rin namang mahinhinto ang pag-iisip... maliban nalang kung kinain ni Hannibal Lecter ang utak mo. *bleh*

But on the bright side, marami din namang nangyari na kanais-nais. Sumali ako ng org at ang daming kong nakilalang mga astig na tao. Sumobra na nga ako sa tambay hours na required dahil nae-enjoy ko talaga. Nung una nga eh sobrang kabado pa ko... parang gusto kong mag-back out!! Pero mababait naman ang mga tao (kahit may nang-aapi! *cough cough*) at naging komportable na rin ako sa kanila. Sana nga lang eh hindi ako mag-quit.

Hay. Dapat talaga ikasanayan ko na ito.

p.s. Siguro dapat nag-psychology nalang ako. Masyado akong nag-iisip! Feeling ko rin na pwede na akong maging counselor! Hahaha... :D