The Land of Crimson Dreams

I will learn how to shut up.

I will restrain myself from saying comments that are uncalled for.

I will try not to be curious even if it kills me. (... and it probably will)

Dang it. Masyado kasi akong madaldal! For a moment there I forgot the divine unspoken rule in any school/ university --- a freshman should have no "attitude".

My big mouth got me into trouble two times this week (and it's only wednesday!!!). Thankfully, the former was kind of patched up already while the latter....

GARGH!!! I want to scream!!!!

Well, is it my fault for being clueless? Is it my fault for being me? And the way the "person" replied REALLY got to my nerves. The "person" reminded me of my grandmother whom I really hated with a passion. DAMN THAT "PERSON"!!!

I will really tone down my "Cheska-ness" now. Expect less perkiness and hyperness. Expect a blank face and safe answers. Expect shyness and low self-esteem.

They want me to be like this? Then so be it.

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(oh yeah, one more thing: SELF-CONTROL!!! WHERE ARE YOU???? I NEED YOU!!!)

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WHAT THE HELL? Why am I letting them control me, HUH??? They're bad for my personal growth!

TO HELL WITH THEM!!!! I am me and no one will change that!!!!

Okay, so maybe I'll still tone down a little.

Today, I wore my AC uniform in UP.

Today, I sang and danced with 6 different guys.

Today, I was auctioned for 1000 php.

("Today.... dang.")

What will tomorrow bring?

answer: beachwear. Yeah man.

How to make a cheska

Ingredients: 5 parts success 3 parts ambition 3 parts beauty

Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Top it off with a sprinkle of caring and enjoy!

Pansin ko lang.... mga pinagsusulat ko dito eh puro tungkol sa aking mga problema. Sige na nga, some good news:

NANALO NANAMAN UP!!!

*brings out luntian at pula pompoms*

GO UP!!!! YEAH!

Let's see, we've beaten NU, UE, UST, ADAMSON... okay!!! konti nalang! MWAHAHAHHA!! I'm very proud! :D

(cynical self: very proud ka dyan... eh parang may natatandaan ako na may isang tao diyan na nagmumura sa harap ng t.v.)

*whistles*

ah basta... go UP pa rin! :D

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On to other matters... kanonood ko lang ng The Village... sobrang astig! Ang galing ng story!! Mostly suspense pero may parts na nakakakilig, nakakatawa, nakakainis... ang galing! Dami pang twists.

I liked this one line though, very true! It goes something like this:
"You don't do what you want to do because you fear that others might think that you want to do it."

Ang astig! And it's about holding hands with the one you like. AWWWWWWWW... cute!!! :D

Nakakainis si ate. Ang sakit na ng braso ko dahil sa kakakurot niya... kinikilig eh!!! BWISET!!

new crush: Joaquin Phoenix!! WHOO!!

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~Raving starts here~

Mga isyu... ang daming isyu!!! Nakakairita... sa una, okay lang eh. Pero sumosobra na! When will it ever stop!?!

*fumes* Sana ma-kontrol ko nalang sarili ko. Sana talaga.

It's either that or I'll just have to do something drastic. Like... get a boyfriend.

O.o

Shit, that will never happen. Self-control!!!!

WAAAHHHH!!!

~Raving ends here~

*looks at watch*

5:46 a.m.

SHIT. Umaga na pala. Natulog ba ako? *HINDE!!!* Bakit? *PLATE!!!*

Mapapamura ka talaga. Shit.

'tangnang ARCH 10!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!