The Land of Crimson Dreams

Syet. Friday was a VERY BAD DAY for me.

Yung arch 10 major plate namin, muntik na namin hindi natapos in time. Yung presentation namin, medyo sabog kasi wala kaming tulog. Tapos sa huli... HINDI NIYA KINUHA YUNG PINAG-HIRAPAN NAMING MODEL AT PLATES!!! PUCHA!!!! May grade na daw kasi, di na niya kailangan tingnan.... PUTIK!!! Ang nakakainis dun, hindi man lang niya tiningnan nang masinsinan ang aming gawa. Pinag-hirapan namin yun tapos sa presentation lang niya titingnan? 8 FRIGGIN MINUTES! And we made that thing for 2 weeks!! What the hell?!!

Pagkatapos ng presentation, may finals kami sa geog. Hindi ako nagfinals. Tanong: Tang'na... BAKIT, CHESKA?! (oo, ilang beses ko 'to natanong) Eto ang mga aking dinahilan:
1) hindi ako nag-aral
2) wala akong ginawang take-home part
3) patay na ang utak ko at hindi na gumagana dahil naiinis ako sa nangyari sa arch 10
4) biglang umulan *feel ko naman sign yun mula kay Lord na 'wag na mag-exam... *

Sobrang nagsisisi ako ngayon.

Pero nag-email naman kami (hindi lang naman ako noh!) kay sir... okay lang mag-exam ulit. Pero... (oo, lahat may PERO!) dapat may excuse slip! LECHE! Sabi kasi namin na na-extend yung presentation namin sa arch 10. LECHE! Ang gulo-gulo ng aking buhay.

Tang'na mo Cheska!!! Bakit ka ganito? First sem, first year mo, loko ka na! ANO BA!! AYUSIN MO NA SARILI MO!!!!!

*breathe*

Putik. Napaiyak nga ako sa office ni Dad habang naghihintay sa kanya pagkatapos ng lahat ng nangyari. First time kong iniyakan ang school... first time kong iniyakan ang arki. Ang tanga-tanga ko talaga. Kung bakit ako ganito ngayon, hindi ko maintindihan.

Dahil ba ako'y nag-aadjust sa isang kolehiyong sobrang iba sa pinasukan ko nung hayskul? Dahil ba ngayon ko lang naranasan ang hindi matulog ng ilang gabi tapos mapupunta lang din sa wala ang pinag-hirapan? Dahil bang humihina na ang aking loob... at lumilinaw na sa wakas ang aking paningin?

Na- disilusyon ako. Ang sakit pala kapag bigla ka kinagat ng katotohanan. Kahit ano pang sabihin mo sa sarili mo na may magandang bagay din sa mundo... ang hirap pa rin paniwalaan sa dami ng nakikitang masasamang bagay. Ang hirap maging positibo sa mundong negatibo.

Hay, buhay nga naman. Ang pinakamadaling gawin: tanggapin nalang ang lahat. Ang hirap nang palagi nalang palaban.

Napapagod din.

I've been babbling about my engot times, as usual, but now I want to look on the bright side... the GOOD things that happened to little 'ol me this past half- week.

("long, meaningless babble.")

Not bad for the last week of classes before the sembreak.

Haha! na-intriga lang ako nung nakita ko yung mga quizzes sa blog ni Jolene! (Hehehe :D) Kaya eto!





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WAHAHA!! Ano, may aangal???? :D

YEAH! YEAH! YEAH!

I survived the 1st sem of my 1st year in UP! *hurrah! hurrah!*

And to celebrate, I chopped of my hair and painted it red!! *grins* Okay, that was a blunt way of putting it... but I really did had my hair cut (around 3 inches... wah!) and put highlights on it... mahogany red!! Don't worry folks, it's not an "out there" red, it isn't even that obvious. It's the kind that can be seen when the light shines on it. I don't think I'm ready for that pinkish reddish hue like in Alias. *shudders*

I'm so HAPPY about it!!!! :D :D :D

And to add to that, I got ALL my subjects in the preenlistment thing except one - panpil19. Not bad though, considering that I have like 5 majors, 3 GE and 1 PE. Ech. 20 units all in all. *sigh*

Ahhh sembreak. A whole month of bumming around with no plates, no projects, no exams, and absolutely no freaking chairs!! Nothing to do at all...

...
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I hope I won't get THAT bored though. hnh.

My feet are cold, the night is as dark as ever... and yet -

- it all seems so perfect. So deliciously beautiful and grand. There's a certain something lingering in the dim streets, in the black sky, in the quiet chill during October. Something rotting. Something fresh. Something evil. Something good. There's a SPICE in the air that one can almost taste. Cinnamon, I think. Cinnamon on Hot Chocolate.

I really can't explain it... it's beyond words. I just feel it. Maybe it's because of All Hallow's Eve, or even All Souls' Day and All Saints' Day but I love that sinister, witchy feeling. There's something about the supernatural that excites me. I just LOVE anything mysterious.

I can't help wanting something mysterious or even weird to happen to me.

Well, not anything DANGEROUS I assure you (though a hint of danger would be fun... harhar! Bring it on!!!) but something that hasn't happened to me before. Out of this world, perhaps?

All right, all right... I WANT TO SEE A GHOST!!!

Seriously though, I guess I'm under the influence of my eery, supernatural fiction books. Hummm... witches, ghosts, faeries, aliens , psychic humans, cute-evil-antagonist-vampires-like-Lestat *drool*, manananggal, kapre, dwende... they interest me to no end. I'm probably romanticizing supernatural characters but hey, they really are an interesting lot. Why are humans afraid of them? Is there a rule that they're supposed to look ugly (most of them anyway)? Do they really exist? If they do, why haven't I seen a bishie vampire?!!

*cough*

I'm in my weird mode. Hey, it's exotic, eccentric, eclectic October. Can't blame me for being a bit crazy.

"People don't think girls are brave, but I'd love the chance to try... just once, perhaps; just once, so I could know what it was like to risk my life and fight to the death. It's not that I want to kill people, it's that I want to find out about me. I'll never completely know about myself unless I try." - Becky from "The Tin Princess by Philip Pullman
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Oh, one thing I HATE about this October? Disgusting DOMs. But that's another entry... if I care to relate it.

WAHOOO!!

After 3 bloody hours of lining up, a give-away written exam, lining up, a driving practical exam using an owner-type jeep, lining up, lots of papers and red tape, and of course, lining up, I FINALLY GOT MY LICENSE!

And it's already a CARD!

*OOOOHHHH* Just AMAZING. *OOOOHHHH*

I'm so proud... another step towards independence! YEAH! *grins*

It's quite an experience, going through all that. And I mean, REALLY going through all that. I am proud to say that I am a perfectly honest citizen of this country and that I did not deal "under the table" as others do/did. I took the exam (2 mistakes!! WHOO!!), and I did not try to talk (or charm... hehe) my way out of not taking the practical driving exam even though I haven't driven manually since the summer. Okay, so I tried , but it didn't work and I went through it so I'm still considered honest. :D

There's really something fulfilling about knowing that I didn't cheat or lie my way into getting this license. In a way, it's like I'm doing my part by following the rules. I'm helping the government, people! That's one less graft and corruption for ya! (feeling nationalistic!*waves Philippine flag*)


While waiting for my turn to pay for all the fees, I couldn't help but wonder how MUCH the government earn every day through the LTO. I mean... it's a minimum of 258 pesos per license, for goodness' sake! And how many are issued per day? It would probably reach a total amount of 100,000 pesos a day per branch... or more, even!

And to think that the money that could've improved our nation would just be taken away in the evil clutches of monsters like Gen. Garcia. Sad, really. *sigh*

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Anywho...

BEWARE!!! I SHALL TERORRIZE THE STREETS OF METRO MANILA (specifically UP and QC)! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

*evil cackle fades away*